Hella Beast!

KM girls track still undefeated!
What's good?!
KW?
Uhhh NO!
HAHAHA me and Susay gave the guysies new nick names and they're sticking! :)
hahaha even Thug C and Kelly are using them!
Tommy Pickle, Keegan, and Nicky!
hahaha their so amazing!
lmao
Uhh that Emerald City Smoothie was delicious!!!!
I'm getting it with ice cream every time! :)

whoops.

hahaha, sorry Brenna I didn't feel so good yesterday and forgot to finish my story :)

I'm so confused and idk why I am or if I even should be.
Thought he hated me, the whole day!
Couldn't take a joke, and talked to me like I was an idiot.
But then practice;
WoW?!
I am a human being, I do get to be treated like one?
wtf.
eff it.
I just want a friendship,
is it really that difficult?

apparently.

Uhh I just want to go back to this day.

Back to when all we did and wanted to do was have fun.

We didn't care about anything else,

before people drank, before people smoked.

Ugh what I would give to replay that summer just one more time.

minute writing; name

You've decided you want a new name--one that will reflect who you are. What is your new name?

I got hella bored and decided to look for minute writing prompts; I saw this one and it made me laugh! It remind me from when I was little. I hated my name and always wanted it to be either, Brooke or Anakate. IDK why, and who will ever know but for some reason they seemed perfect to me. I was always super jealous when I met someone with those names. When I think about it now I can't think of myself with another name, I don't think I would ever reply to anything else guess when people say it grows on you or you'll get use to it, they're right! lol

BFF?!

Ugh why do friendships have to be so complicated?! I'm constantly having problems with one friend or another. There are always the few that I can count on and I want to thank them for that. But then there are the ones that I love with all my heart but we seem to constantly have issues. I'm hoping that during this summer we will be able to fix if not all at least most, and hopefully have the time of our life just like we did last summer! <3 I love having guy friends their so much fun to hang out with! How can they not be fun to hang out with? You can flirt with them all you want and as long as your both aware that your in the friend zone then shoot, flirting with no consequences?! HELL YES! :) Only one problem, not being positive if your in the friend zone or not, or one thinks that your in the friend zone, but then another doen't realize it, whought-whoo theres an issue. Let me just tell you thats not cool. You know what else isn't cool, when you think your in the friend zone, your not sure if he is, and your friends don't believe you that you have no feelings for him. So what do you do? Well you have to stick with the girl code (shitty it needs to be revised!) you ditch the guy (fuck you just ditched a friend you had hella fun with) you try and go on with your life (What's knew you see the guy every day, hes mad at you cause its not the same). WOW when do you ever win?! never. fml. Either way I lose a friendship.

track again;

So I wasn't gonna say anything about it because I only clear 8' 6" POOPY!
So I got second, or so I thought!
Turns out Kelsey no heighted!
Like OMG!!!
That means I got first and Kimmie Kins got second!
We be hella beastly! :)

Later me and J-ill were chillen on the field since the other team left the meet!
I was given her crap for running a 400 backwards!
lmao,
then I told her about the gym.
AHHHHH
She beat me up with her baton,
even though nothing happened!
We lifted weights, swam and talked,
it was pretty freakin funny though!

I saw Devonte, uhh what a creeper.
He text me this morning to try and find stuff out about Cassie,
uhh what a nasty, so I told him she a a boyfriend.
And, wow I have never seen someone get off someone and onto another so fast.
The next thing I knew he was asking me a bunch of crap.
I said 'no.' The convo was over.
Hahahaha it made me happy!

I'm soooo exhausted right now, not cool.
I have to go buy Luis's shirt today, and get that chocolate.
Then me and Sue are tryin to get people to go to the lake,
so that we can hang out and play like soccer of football!
It makes me think of summer! :)

UHH but tomorrow,
freakin track invite,
in south whidbey!
I have to get to school at seven.
On a SATURDAY!
wtf.

Blah blah blah

I feel sooooo dead right now!
I'm so out of shape! hahaha
I just got back from the gym with that KK kid.
(Uhh. help. idk. don't ask me questions.)
We didn't even do that much I just haven't done anything in so long it seemed like a lot!
But we swam for hella long,
and the hot tub was hella hot!
Hahaha it was kinda nice to feel like I was actually doing something with my life.

At pole vault,
(yeah I had track then went to the gym. why? idk. lol)
I almost cleared 9' 6" today, or says Kelly and Nick,
that would be pretty cool to actually PR by a foot tomorrow!
(Fat chance, but hey why not have hope?!) lol

Sorry all my blogs are so boring,
as sue would say their just journals,
(I just read hers!) lol
but whatever it's kinda nice to just type about everything.
Wow that sounds weird,
it was better in my head I swear!

BTW;

My family finally told me what's wrong with my auntie,
You know the one with lung cancer.
So she had a seizure at the store with my Grandma, and my family just told me that the doctors found a brain tumor.
The tumor is non-curable, so their going to stop chemo, and start to shrink the tumor, so that way she can have a better quality of life, while she's alive.
I can't even began to think of life without her, she's the only one that really talks to me and my brother at family events, and comes to visit just cause she hasn't seen us in a while.
She has a daughter, and a gran- daughter.
Her and her daughter don't have the best relationship, her daughter doesn't even come to family get together's anymore, if the cancer couldn't even bring her to be nice, idk if this can.
But what kind of bitch can't get over herself to just forgive her literally dying mother for the time she has left.
She says the family hates her, but how can she say that when every one is always calling and shes the one choosing to ignore it?!
Why can't my family just come together for once, with no drama and just love each other, I've never completely understood the drama on either side of my family, and maybe I never will, but I think this is the time for them to get over themselves.

:D

I love weekends.
They remind me of summer, they put a smile on my face and give me hope that I can make it through the rest of the school year.
Friday was fun but I'm still super sorry Kimmie! I went to the soccer game with Susay, Zanus, and Brennisis. But while I was on my way there J-ill gave me a call telling me to go to Kimmie's! I totally would have but it was to late of notice for my parentals! The soccer game was pretty fun, I learned about ding-dong-ditch with your mouth! Oh geeze some females! lol I went home and went to sleep after that though stupid school took all my energy! Saturday I woke up early and and had pole vault practice, oh geeze that was pretty fun :) we had delicious doughnuts! To bad I had to pay for them! Hahaha it was hilarious when Thomas took me out though, let me tell you even while I was laying on the ground with the pole at my feet I could not stop laughing! Louis gave me a couple good laughs too, but damn Louis is a hella bomb pole vaulter! For his first day he cleared a higher height then Camillo and was doin the same as me! Dang let me just tell you it was impressive lol. After our ab work-outs I gave Louis a ride home... shhhh! haha Then it was off to hang out with Brennisis and Dani we were at the KS then to Dani's and back to the KS! lol Then we went and hung with that J kid, it wasn't that bad actually seemed like any other time hanging out with people, who would have guessed that was possible?! I meet his brother, who's white! lmao. And saw his brothers reptiles, they were creepy! Then came Sunday, which wasn't so nice, I woke up with good intentions to go snowboarding with my brother, with my brand new bindings! I was excited!!! We get there and right aways my ankle is killing me, my third ride up the lift and I was almost in tears! I felt bad but I couldn't take it any longer, Joshie and I didn't stay for very long at all! We came home and ate, hella food, I've never been so hungry before!
Oh geeze, WASL tomorrow.
Nasty.
At least that means I get to miss three periods!
:)

not so grool...

oh yesterday;
It started out pretty decent, still had to get up for zero hour but eh whats new.
Then I had school, schools school.
Then I was off to the track meet, pole vault was ok, I tied my PR, and 'should' have clear 9 feet (still mad I didn't!)
Then freakin ammons and thug C had a miss communication!
Uhh I had to run the 400, I was in pain and not ready! (defiantly did not PR on that run!)
So I thought I would be done, but no, I still had to run the 4x4, but after 3 advil and a ton of aspercreme it wasn't that painful till about half way round, at the 200 range! lol
But damn susay beasted! time for her to run distance AND xc!!! :D
YEA girls still undefeated! whats good?!
But then my brother came and got me, I was so confused! He explained why, my Auntie Debbie, who has lung cancer, had a seizure while at the store with my grandma! My parents were at the hospital with them for most of the night, I hope she does ok, no ones really given me any info on why it happend or how shes doing!

video production lab

Ahhh I have been in her since fifth period and it's now after school. Were trying to finish our movie today, hahaha uhh maybe. But we have to actually finish the script first! omg whatever when am I ever on time with homework and projects! lol Ahh I'm bored!! Lilishka looks ridiculous tryin to take pictures while flipping her hair! hahaha oh what a good laughs! lol Oh Macs are so amazing!

family? no.

What is the point of family? I've always thought that it was to support you, help you through hard times, love you always no matter what. Well apparently not mine. My family would rather assume that I'm smoking weed, sneaking out, and doing everything wrong. They have no proof, they have no reasoning, mainly cause I DON'T do anything like that. They can't seem to believe that I'm a good person, that I hold myself to a higher standard and that I don't do the shit they accuse me of doing. If I didn't have my brother to talk to and help clear this ridiculous shit up I don't know where I would be in my life right now. Yes, I have made some mistakes, and have not always done the right thing, but I have never done anything like this. I can't believe that they don't trust me. Even better yet, I can't believe that they weren't even planning on confronting me about it. Even my brother, wasn't going to. I had to hear through the grape vine. WTF. Why can people never be straight with me there always acting as if they need to shield, or protect me from something. I'm in high school, I'm almost seventeen, I could be doing all this, I know about all this. But it's not me, I don't, I'm not a child.

wtf

I'm sick of people saying one thing to your face then turning around and saying another. Shit, like do you really think that I'm not going to hear?! I fucking ask you what you want, you don't even have the balls to tell me. I have to find it out for myself, you straight up lied to my face. I can't take this anymore. How can I trust you or tell you anything if you can't even talk to me or tell me what you want. Take it. If that's what you want have it. I done trying to help you. I asked you and I ask again, but time after time you tell me that's not what you want, when it obviously is. Well here's you chance to have, take it's all fucking yours. Just remember what we talked about, It's not just one person's it's everyone that wants it, that's just the way it is don't forget, and get hurt. How could you expect me not to see, did you want me to? Could you really not tell me in person, you couldn't tell me before?

I want sleep.

I'm so fucking tired of Horner and his bullshit. It's WASL week and I don't have to take it, so I decided to sleep in. I didn't think this would be a problem with zero hour considering that last WASL week we didn't have it. But apparently we did and I got marked absent, my parents being my parents they flipped out that they got a call saying I was marked absent in one or more classes. So of course the next day I was forced to wake up at five get ready and go zero hour. Just my luck Horner decides not to show up. I have now been at the school for an hour and half!Just two more hours and class starts! Fuck.

track, yessur

Wow track invites, they're ridiculous! Especially when there two and a half hours away! What the heck! We get there late, and J-ill was off and running cause her first event was in like ten minutes! I felt bad for her, but she beasted and won! oh yes! We think the steeple chase should be an event at every meet! I pole vaulted, did decent got 8 feet, but apparently thats not good enough cause I owe doughnuts along with Nick and Keenan! hahaha (I was suppose to get 8 feet 6 inches, whatever!) Once I was done with pole vault I was done! I did nothin and just chilled with my bff, and a lil mexie! :) tehe I love Jesus and Luis! Idk if you know this but were not suppose to leave the meet we could get in a lot of trouble by ammons, especially if it's an invite far away, but all well that didn't stop us, oh yes were rebels (who cares if I was like freakin out the whole time! ha) We were gonna go all the way to western to get that five dollar buffet and see all those cutie college kids, but decided a mile and a half walking just one way was to far! lol So we settled with little ceasers pizza that still took super long! like half an hour! ridiculous! But was still pretty fun, I have to say I've never seen such intense ms. pac man! then walking back to the meet and having Luis practically eat a whole pizza by himself then having to go run an eight hundred! one of the funniest things I've ever seen in my life! Me and Jesus swear we could see his gut like sticking out! he came in last but what could you expect! lmao. then he came back to sit with me and Jesus as you can see in the pic! ;) haha then we moved on from sitting and went down to the field where they made a fort using blankets and two hurdles I didn't join them! lol they tried lurin people in with candy, the people were to smart! Once the meet was finally over everyone got on the bus, and were ready to leave just like every other school. But ammons being ammons he made us all go back to the field because he knew that we were going to win something! In the end girls got second and boys got third, not horrible but we could have done better for sure! It was pretty funny though cause we were the only school there. LITERALLY, even the host school was gone! OMG! I almost forgot about the bus rides! lmfao! So on the way there I sat with Marticha (sry idk how to spell it!) but she slept the whole time, so I texted susay about J-ill, cause once again J-ill is thinkin she can have what ever she likes, oh heck no tech-no think again! Yup I decided that her life needs to be turned into a soap opera and that it should be called; 'Jill, a girl who thought she could have what ever she liked.' Apparently it wasn't that bad though cause J-ill approved! :) As for the bus ride back! oh geeze. So someone liked spilled something on the back of the bus so we weren't suppose to have food, but we snuck it on then the bus driver took it off, so... well of course we snuck it on again! lol but stupid Drewry is a lil taddle tale and we had to give it up, and for some reason on the way back we had more people! ugh so frustrating cause with my rotten luck I got stuck in a seat with three people. wow it was a long ride! but ok cause it was fun being squished with bff luis and J-ill. At first we read a magazine with the lil mexie jesus, it was mainly about sex and super funny! then luis got tired and fell asleep across me and jill, but then his big butt fell off the seat and he woke up hahahaha it was funny! :) then it was really uncomfortable till i sat under the seat! that was nice lol on the ground facing the back of the bus with my legs under the seat! it was perfect all the way back to school! Oh and Luis texting random things to people I don't talk to very often was interesting they all thought I was either high or drunk what a bunch of lil beezy's! :) tehe well that's it for now! hope this wasn't to long! lmao!

oh driving;

So I finally went to go get my pants from Brenanas no not like that you nasty! I just plainly forgot them when I stayed the night a while ago! But anyways, we were just chillin at her house but I did have the car. :) I was a good girl for like three hours, if I do say so myself that was pretty good. But then we got bored and Brenana needed a break from cleaning her room so we decided to hang out with A, or how I prefer to call it, A booty call :) So we drove down there (by the way A officially gives the worst directions ever) once we finally got down to his house which is hella far away! we find J with him, oh what a PLEASANT surprise, NOT! On the way back I made A drive considering I needed gas, he had the money and I was just to afraid, especially cause I've never had to pump gas before! :) I love my Daddy. On the way back J did his usual thing ugh. Once to Brenanas we did what we were doing before watchin tv, lol. But J continued his usualness, what a d-bag. But it was ok cause then my Daddy texted and said 'home now', what a savior! So J being J walked me to my car, and A and brenana decided to be lil cock blockers! Oh I love them dearly. So that was how my night ended I went home and went to sleep. Thanx Brenana :D tehe

spring break

Spring break, has been so nice! To finally be able to great a break from school and have some time to think about life! To be able to go on road trip '09! (sucks that uhmm, one of us, was put on Asian lock down and road trip was cut short, though!) All well that just means we'll have to make it up at some point! YEAH summer road trip '09!!! Spring break started off with a BAM! painting our stomachs to try and be like one of the guys, didn't work so well but was still fun! Then off to the soccer game and down to the ks, where we learned that eclectics don't like preps or to be called Goth's! sorry our bad! but thanks for the snack, that red apple sauce smelled pretty good! :) The fact that there was actually sun over break gave me hope that Washington can actually have some what decent weather, that puts a smile on my face! Other then that I didn't do much over spring break though, track makes me exhausted and takes up my whole day. Spent sometime with Dani and Brennana, walked around and got hyper that was about it, but whatever at least I did something! Texting bff, was nice, actually just got off the phone with her! :) I can't wait until I can actually talk to her in person! whoo its so exciting to think about! Love it when friends crazy parents ground them and take everything away. Uhh track invite tomorrow, so far away though I have to get up early. It's in the same city as my bro's college but apparently he doesn't even love my enough to stay and watch. Ugh whatever at least he'll be at the house when I get home.

ABC

So once again I blow off doing my work and actually getting stuff done to procrastinate and blog.
I haven't wrote nearly as much as I told Lily I was going to I better get caught up!
So to start, yesterday;

• Once again at track the people with 'Seniority Status' took over our pole vault day, but what's new, (I just can't believe Thug C still thinks I have a chance to make it to state especially when he never helps!)
• The bff who can have what ever she likes; is taken it to extreme at the moment, and now doesn't know what shes going to do! Ahhh she just needs to remember Prom '09 the goal at hand!! lol

But now for today! :D

• My day started out with Horner... enough said!
• P.S. It's national F Horner day! with all his poopy things to say, even though he doesn't help with anything!
• But moving on; I had a fine convo with, a friend who I have friendship in recovery with currently, this time not about the friendship but about a Juno scare! Guess I'll know more about that later on today, hopefully that will be the last of it though I don't think I could deal with the stress of trying to recover the friendship while the Juno scare is on!
• So I just got home from the track meet, and it was cold and wet, but whats new I live in the Pacific Northwest... I pole vaulted and did ok PR'd I think not quite positive on that one! Then ran a 4x4 that I was no where near ready to for, it was shown by the nasty black goo that came hurling out of my mouth after the race! Hope the girls side did ok! I didn't stay to ask and find out.

Uhhh guess it's time to study for the end of my math final, and get started studing that science test that I had no clue was even coming up!

stupid computers!

AHHHH!
My first day back to school in almost a week!
I actually did work in CWI for the first time in forever!
With my luck; my computer went to black screen, without me saving!
FML
(luckily Lily's helping me do India! ;)
lmao.

math test? Whaaa!

OMG!
I can't believe I fell asleep during my math test again!
Not only have I fallen asleep during math test again, but this is the second time I fell asleep during the same test!
I hate math.
My grade is barely passing, and now surely with this test score, I'm going to be failing!

LILY!!!!

Hi lily!
Your so amazing!!!